She’ll often kick off the conversation by sharing an example of her anxieties. In 2021, Morrison started Martes de Ansiedad (Anxiety Tuesday), a virtual conversation with her fans through Instagram Live. It’s still hard for her to think about all the pain she’s endured and the criticism that comes with being in the public eye. “Therapy sessions, the ketamine, moving in and out of countries and trying all sorts of different therapies and just really looking for answers to all of my questions,” she said. “To me, it’s been a journey of all my life,” she said. She was able to better process her dad’s death. She started to understand where a lot of her anxieties came from. It helped her relax and access parts of her subconscious that she was still resisting during her therapy sessions. The ketamine was another way to help slow her down, she said. I knew where that fear came from,” she said. I don’t even smoke weed, man.’”īut: “I remember coming back home, and the first thing I noticed was that I wasn’t sad anymore and that I wasn’t scared. She scheduled a treatment, but not without trepidation: “I was like, ‘I’m so scared. She started looking for help again, researching ketamine as a treatment for depression, PTSD and anxiety disorders. “It was just like ‘Oh wow, I’ve been so bad to myself,’” she said.Įverything she had been doing to manage her mental health suddenly wasn’t working anymore. Morrison started getting famous in the 2000s, but she said after “a certain thousand followers, it started to get very dark.” With the fame came the daily pressure she put on herself to live up to others’ expectations, and the anguish when she felt she didn’t. “When I arrived, I remember feeling like, ‘Man, these people are so slow,’ and then I realized: No, I’m actually going so fast, and there’s no need to go this fast the whole day,’” she said.
She relearned to sit down for coffee without her computer, take photos for herself and not for Instagram, spend time with her husband and dogs and people watch. The pace of the Parisian lifestyle was healing. I think I started feeling bad when I felt that I couldn’t do that.”) (“I always thought I could be honest with my emotions, I mean, authentic with myself. Creo que me empecé siente mal cuando siente que ya no pueda ser lo,” she said. “Siempre pensé que podría ser honesta conmigo sobre mis emociones, o sea, como auténtica como en mi persona, siempre siente que podía ser lo. Morrison credits being honest about who she is and integrating that new outlook into her music to living in Paris and getting away from the spotlight. “We should talk about the bad things in a more responsible, empathetic and compassionate way.” “I wish not only in Mexico, but in Latin America, we would talk as much as we talk about the good things,” she said. She overcame trust issues and learned to use her art as a creative outlet. Morrison got the help she needed.ĭecades later, therapy has helped her understand that the abuse wasn’t her fault, that she deserved love. She told her mom that if she didn’t see a doctor, she was afraid of where her uncontrolled anxious and depressive feelings might lead. (“Why, honey? You don’t need to see a shrink.”) “Por qué mija? Pero tú no necesitas ir a un loquero,” was her mom’s first reaction.
“I’m a disgrace to this family because I brought this upon me.”ĭespite her fears, she asked her mother if she could see a therapist. “I was having these horrible, horrible thoughts, thinking my parents are going to hate me for life,” she said. She later realized she had trauma from being sexually abused when she was 5. It wasn’t easy for her to ask for help, but she knew she needed to talk to someone other than her family. As a preteen, she started having anxiety and panic attacks.
Morrison said she’s always been a sensitive person. “It was addressing how my anxiety has been with me for the longest time.” “It was talking about how I felt about fame and how I felt just very sad and lonely - that fame was a very lonely place to live in.” A lot of people don’t know that it talks about that.” when I was a kid and how that tormented me. “‘Suciedad’ was actually about my sexual abuse. “That was one of the songs that I felt was a cry for help for me.”
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